Quietly rebuilding...

I quit caring. About poker, that is. It showed up in my results. Rather than practicing good BR management, I spewed huge chunks of ca$h in -EV (for me) games, playing beyond my BR. I used to be really careful about my bank roll. I realized a few weeks ago that I just didn't give a shit. Rather than playing to win, I was playing for entertainment. I became one of the folks I used to target.

I have a mission now. I proved to myself this month I can win at rush. Most of my spew was at the rush tables, and rush tends to magnify leaks. I still don't love the variance, but I no longer tilt off huge sums when I'm beat. I played some regular 6max tables last night and for the first time in a while I enjoyed it. I played to win. I folded AA when I was sure I was beat. I pushed for value, not variance. I didn't push the action unless I was way ahead. I beat up on obvious thieves. I quit when I got tired. I quickly got out of tables that weren't working for me. My biggest loss for the night was $7. My biggest pot won was $101. At 25NL. The nut cases are still out there, I'm happy to report.

I want that money I lost back. I have a carrot. There's a tenor sax I want to buy. I'm only going to use poker funds to get it. I've never withdrawn a cent from FT. It's time to enjoy the work I've put into this game. I'm about 1/4 of the way there.

Wish me luck :)

:)

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